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Monday, November 22nd, 2004
3:57 pm
girl____afraid This is one of the better community concepts I've seen in my Livejournal days.

Wow. I am most decidedly not getting any at the current moment.
I'd have to say my dating history is just like the last penis I came in contact with - short and pathetic.

Being that I'm currently really fucking in love with my best friend, Andrew, who has admitted his feelings for me but refuses to do anything about it because of a) being afraid of fucking up the friendship because in his (one) experience things are never the same..and he's not willing to risk it and b) because he's a really immature asshole. (And I quote: me-"can you honestly tell me that you feel nothing for me?" him-"no...but I'm a really good liar.")
But he still likes to act like we're together. sdlvkanwpeicafj24afa444444
I also found out today that this weekend he was hanging out with another good friend of ours..and that today she was all being..girly about it. I'd always thought they liked each other.. imagine my dismay here.

Not to mention I'm just about stalking one of my exes that I broke up with for someone else (who turned out to be needy, creepy, excessively clingy, and is the owner of the aforementioned .. shortcoming) but am terrified to pursue it, because I don't dare hurt him again, and just knowing how I feel about Andrew, it would be highly unfair (although it would serve Andrew right to realize that I'm not going to be around forever just at his convenience)

So, how's everyone's day going?

current mood: pensive
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Friday, June 4th, 2004
3:51 pm

i love the idea behind this community.

if you read my journal, you'de be caught up in the story of my longing for this guy, and how he does not long for me, and how it has been a year and a half since i have gotten any, and it seems like i will never get any ever again.

current mood: content
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
1:52 pm - heartache

*sigh* i know that he is doing everything in his power to get me to leave him. i am finally seeing reality, and i don't want to deal with it. that is the thing... he IS DONE WITH ME. by the possesions of naked tits that i just found in our room just now, is for one. ignoring me, playing his star wars game is second. no sex is a final. honestly i just don't know why i kept trying to cling myself towards him. he even gets so happy when he sees his brother's girlfriend. he talks to her, as if she was his best friend. and with me, i am just the wind waiting to pass by LITERALLY, if you know what i mean.

this morning, i woke up, and noticed the reality of it. he doesn't want me. he wants to jerk off alone. be by himself. play star wars. talk to his friends. sometimes i envy him to have no emotions when it comes to me. i wish i had the strength to ignore him, and not feel a damn thing. but me, like a wuss, i cried on the couch, thinking of the time when he held me in his arms, staring at stars, hearing him say,"i love you". i cried even more today. then i tell myself, he isn't worth making you feel pain. just let him go, let him be. you will be just fine, in fact, i you can feel happier once you know that he is gone.

my weakness is, co-dependancy. sadly i must admit finally. i need to know that someone loves me. and to be loved in return. i just want to be held. yeah, i know im ranting. but i guess this is the only place to rant. this is the only place where i can't hide my feelings. where im sure people feel offended to read it, because it is so personal. trust me, once this shit is finally over, i may rant about how i feel depressed, because i have no one. but after all of that, i will be my happy self once again. i can be me once again. i will be extra cautious not to give my heart away to anyone that i feel isn't worthy of my love. especially bastards that make me feel the most insecure. what makes me the most insecure? hmm, gee i wonder, #1 ignoring me #2 talk about how other girls make a guy so happy that isn't me #3 owing material that is either pornographic, or nude, peferably of women. those three things throw me off, turn me off, and i turn into a horrifying nag. to where i make that guys life impossible to live without hearing me say a few things like, "your an asshole" "how can you do this to me?"

but yet i am always criticized, and called names. suddenly my reputation is of a girl who is amazingly insane.

current mood: crushed
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Sunday, January 11th, 2004
6:21 pm

yeah, so im watching james bond, the world is not enough, and it's with my step mom and step brothers. the movie is going great, then it ends, and it ends with james and christmas (the woman he rescued) doing you know, what james does best. and the final line of the whole movie is "I thought christmas only comes once a year." BWAHAHAHAHA! they didn't get it, my step mom did, but my little bro's didn't so i left right before she explained it to them. i really don't need to hear that from a parent...

current mood: amused
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3:16 pm - bwah


i joined because...:::drumrole:::

i need someplace to vent my frustrations about guys and how much some of them really suck. also to get advice from you guys...my dearest, aintgettingnone friends. i will, of course, return the favor...

so here's a question...what do you guys do while your friends are out with their significant others and your at home?

current mood: curious
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11:20 am

bwahaha! good thinkin' nato! although, i think i partially figured out why im not gettin' any.. it relates to my of this one piece of music sooo much.. you just have to see my journal.. and realize that i want it to bear my children.
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10:45 am

I started this here community because my friend and I "aint getting none". Feel free to share why you "aint getting none", want to get some, or fantasies. This is a community for people who are proud to say that they are pissed off that they "aint getting none".
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